Alone & inner peace

I literally wanna be alone. I wanna stay alone forever, and at the same never get that feeling that I need a frnd or a family, and never feel bored. 

Just enjoy myself , have inner peace  that I've almost never tasted. Do a lot of things I haven't done, don't know the reason why I haven't done them till now, it could be time, family, and maybe even my own self.

I wanna sit in front of the beach with a very small house but very full of life by playing music, sports, drawing, youga, horse riding and that horse would be my best frnd forever till I die alone...

"طيب عامة أنا مش مضايقة,بس مش مبسوطة.
عايزة حاجة و مستنياها,بس مش عارفة ايه هى.
كل حاجة بقت ملهاش طعم.
الانعزال عن الناس بقى ممتع جدا,بس فى نفس الوقت محتاجة ناس جمبى.
بعيط بس مش عارفة ليه,مضايقة من كذا حاجة بس اتعودت عادى بقى عندى تبلد.
و اللى بيسألنى مالك, بقوله 'مش عارفة' وأنا مش عارفة بجد.
محتاجة دكتور نفساني؟"؟

the best words I've ever read as it describes me perfectly